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I should probably apologize for the amazing display of retardation in my last entry. I'd delete it, but instead I'm keeping it as a monument to stupidity; hopefully it will stop me the next time I feel the desire to update my lj while totally pissed. Anyway...

All those in favor of never attending Geology again say "I"

*raises her hand* ...I? *stomps and spits on geology*

If you have the chance, read the novel by Ford Madox Ford called The Good Soldier. Read it critically and closely. It's brilliant. I love novels that on the surface are one thing and when read closely are something else entirely. Ford is a genius, his techniques are so subtle that you hardly notice what he's doing to you until the whole picture comes into focus.

I'm currently downloading the Possession soundtrack; I've always loved the music from the movie, and now that my internet is working perfectly I have the opportunity to get it...

Rehearsal today was okay, I felt a bit out of it, wasn't putting 100% of myself into it. I need to be careful, I'm starting to feel too complacent with some of the scenes, I need to keep finding the freshness, the newness that is essential for my character to be effective. I'm terrified of not being good enough. This is my big chance to prove to my director, the department, my peers and the school that I can take a lead role and make something memorable of it. I know I have it in me, I know I do, but it will take a lot of sacrifice--sacrifices of pride, time, feeling and mental energy. It's hard to give yourself over to something that you know might be painful...in the end it will pay off and form something beautiful, but the initial outpouring of heart is what's difficult. Maybe this doesn't make any sense. I might be making too much of this; I just want to succeed.

Had amazing Chinese food with Jimmy tonight and watched Josie and the Pussycats. It was a nice beginning to the evening, now I need to do my homework and make sure I get enough sleep tonight. Much love to everyone...
Current Mood:
complacent complacent
Current Music:
Frou Frou - "Let Go"
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On October 12th, 2005 02:53 pm (UTC), xxgothangelxx commented:
question...
Who is "jasonej" and how did they find me? I like your journal BTW :)
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